Heart of my heart

So I am sure everyone at some point has been in a situation or instance in life when you felt something be it happiness or sadness or love or jealousy or rage. You felt an emotion or thoughts so deeply however it seemed impossible to express. Well this if how I felt when I sat back and tried to express, somehow, to my sister on her 21st, just how much she means to me. I scratched my head and tried to figure out what and how to say what I felt in my heart. So here it is, everything I could possibly try and say to her but never found a way of releasing it until I finally put pen to paper. 

You would have been too tiny to ever recall

The day I sat by your side and promised my all

The things I promised you on the day you were born

A list of promises on my life I had sworn

I was the little age of no more than three

when I realised what my reason on earth would be­

You were the most precious thing I’d ever hold in my hands

And I promised the world by you I’d always stand

I promised that with my every single breath

I would be there to protect you until my death

I promised that no one would take you away

And I promised on my life on that special day

That the tiny bundle of joy in my hand I did hold

I would treasure forever more than diamonds or gold

Because no one single person who walked this earth

would ever deserve or understand just what you are worth

because to me, you see, you were my world

The reason I breathed as over my fingers yours curled

And from then I knew, even though you no word you could utter

That our hearts understood what my mouth did mutter

And I promised, as side by side were grew up bigger,

Just me and my baby sister together forever,

That no body could hurt you, just let them try

For it’s always killed me to see my baby sister cry

And as Batman had Robin, and Sonny had Cher

everywhere that you went I was always there

And as Bonnie had Clyde and Adam had Eve

you were made for greatness, in you I always believe

It’s been so many years so many ups and downs

So many tears and laughter confusion and frowns

And when we didn’t agree on one thing or another

I know sometimes you wish that you’d had a brother

But I know that wishing was driven by rage

Because you my world grow better with age

We’ve had our fights and screaming matches

The tantrums, the boys, the kissing catchers

But together we always stood extra tall

Hand in hand, with you as my all

And little sister you lost and your heart did break

I tried to make a deal with God to not let it ache

He said to me that he had to let you learn

that heartache will come before happiness returns

and I said I would do whatever it takes

and I begged him not to let my sisters heart break

And although that time I couldn’t take it away

I was holding your hand every step of the way

So when you’re lonely and lost and feeling confused

When you’re hurting and aching and your is heart bruised

I’ll dust off your knees and pick up the pieces

I’ll hold you closer and iron out the creases

I’ll kiss your cheeks and wipe away all your tears

I’ll whisper you secrets to abolish your fears

Because today's your day you turn 21

You’ll be given a key, your life has begun

no mountains too high nor rivers too wide

nothing will happen to you, with me by your side

Together we’ll take on mountains and stars

And I’d let you go but I’d never be far

Because now you are old enough to understand

I’ll be close behind but I must let go of your hand

You are the reason I take every breath

and the thing I’ll love most until my death

So I want you to remember every single day

that I’ve promised to be there every step of the way